She’s this type of person that just pours all that she is into others.
She finds that all she needs is to find someone who will just listen.
Someone who will just humor her. Who will just take it all in and look at her like she’s more than just crazy. Like she’s just such a breath of life, of fresh air. This is the kind of affection and attention she craves the most.
So what happens is that when she meets someone who will accord her this, she just dives into it. She finds herself talking. Giving.
She becomes a fountain unending, a fountain forever flowing. She finds that she has this need to fill in her own empty space by filling another’s soul.
She fears that within her is this hole that she craves to have filled, yet cannot find solace nor this spring. She fears that she is forever condemned to long for this water without ever quenching her thirst.
She feels like a wanderer. Without a home or haven. She feels like in the depths of her is a little girl that wants to be seen.
Right now this little girl wants to dance to Indie Rock. She wants to sit on a rooftop and watch the stars. She wants to dance in the rain.
Splash and play under the raindrops until her hair is stuck to her face and she is breathless with exhilaration.
She wants to run between the trees in a forest. To just run as she disengages from every load that burdens her.
She wants to get high and lie on the grass watching the sky. She wants to sit on a hill and feel the sun on her face. She wants to watch the sun blaze red as it sinks lower and lower.
She wants to pour paints on a canvas- abstract mixtures of red and green and yellow and blue. All the colors of a rainbow in a mess that makes no sense but is so beautiful because it is her soul.
She wants the beauty of passion. She wants to feel arms around her.
Hugging her tight. She wants to feel lips on her neck. Tickling all her sensitive spots.
She wants to feel delirious laughter rising from the inside of her as love twirls her to music unheard and melodies only she can hear.
She wants to be wild and free. Wild and free like a bird. She wants to soar across the skies. She wants to watch the earth from on high.
She wants to take flight and leave behind all her fears.
She wants to free her soul.
Via Maggie Mungai.